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IN MEMORY OF NATASHA SLYVESTERNatasha was a past member of the Jefferson Market Library Poetry Workshop and a long-time resident of the village. She lived only doorsteps away from the library. A few years ago her interests took her elsewhere. I know she was working on a children's book and other types of fiction. I know she loved Keats (she gave me a book of his sonnets)and George Eliot passionately, a few glasses of wine at dinner, her corner health food store, Martha Stewart, her friends and reading; not necessarily in that order. I last saw her for dinner about a month ago on 13th street and 6th avenue at a restaurant called SPAIN. We had a great time. I know she adored her daughter and her grandchildren and her daughter's husband. She will be missed by all who knew her. And by me. Natasha goodbye.
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AS FROM THE DARKENING GLOOM A SILVER DOVEAs from the darkening gloom a silver dove
......Upsoars, and darts into the eastern light,
......On pinions that naught moves but pure delight:
So fled thy soul into realms above,
Regions of peace and everlasting love:
......Where happy sprits, crowned with circlets bright
......Of starry beam, and gloriously bedight,
Taste the high joy none but the bless'd can prove
There thou or joinest the immortal quire
......In melodies that even heaven fair
Fill with superior bliss, or, at desire
......Of the omnipotent Father, cleavest the air,
On holy message sent. -- What pleasures higher?
......Wherefore does any grief our joy impair?
..................-- John Keats........................................................................................12 Poems by NATASHA SYLVESTERGROWING UPEach week I bother to gather wild flowers.I take my scissors and go into the woods,Out to the fields and up into the hills,Sighting a few deer and families of Canada geese.Each week the wild flowers change:Orange honeysuckle, blue gentian, pale-pink primrose,Now spiky purple larkspur or dark brown cat-o-nine tails,Miniature lemon snapdragons, Queen Anne's lace, and black-eyed Susans.Each week I bundle them up and set them outIn tall vases and tiny squat, white pots,Grouped to show each special bloom,Extremely delicate, fine and spare.Each week I wonder what their real names are.My mother would know, I say. I do it for hershe never gathered wild flowers.Perhaps I do it for myself...............................................March 15, 1999......................................................................................THE LEGACYI went to help her pack the many booksranged by subject in sturdy wooden crates,retrieved from the streets, tucked along the walls,under mammoth light-filled artist's windows.They will go to the city library to be sold to collectors and students:philosophical treatises, art books, the Japanese/English dictionary,poetry, novels, scientific tracts,mute proofs of our human development.We pack and stack and label the cartons,ignore the solemnity of our loss.The truckers arrive, leaving the shelves bare,deleting out friend's lifetime as guardian.What, ho, to landfall, you silent hailstones,full-blown and burning deep in our minds.......................................................................March 2000......................................................................................SPRING HARBINGERthe bird is cooing outside the open window today,its tail dusting the sill.My darling, I tell it, my darling,Do not get your hopes up.You are not invited inside to hide againon the shelf packed with avian statues:........The winged Delft candle holder........The clay spotted "measle" bird........The brightly painted Mexican pigeons........The wooden Cape Cod mallard........The yellow plastic "Woodstock"losing yourself in the world I control,escaping into the guest roomas if you had been invited,shivering in dark corner,scattering a twirl of feathers and pellets,ignoring our wall of separation,........scaring us both............................................................February 28, 2000......................................................................................PUSHING MY FUNNY-BUTTONShe makes me laughout loud and rollingholding my battered....."Daniel Deronda."Rich, preening Hanliegh Grandcourt.....aided by his Iagodestroys gorgeous wife Gendolen,.....squeezing the last drops of greed.All the while George Eliot.....the astounding polyglotsupports her lover's hare-brained wife,.....his legal children not his own.Just as I think to cry.....she tobaggons downHanleigh's narrow, specious nose,.....brings Daniel in to shovel.I wonder how she does it.....standing way back thereand reaching across the ageless morass:.....she makes me laugh.........................................................March 14, 2000......................................................................LIKE LOVEI have a plant with elephant-ear leaves,soft and pliant, green and shining.Sometimes I touch it gently.Sometimes I forget, even starve it.It will not die.I marvel at its strength,its perserverance: new shoots,relentless, unending but contained.It transcends its simple pot.Is this like love, I wonder.........................................................December 1999.
....................................................................................JULY FOURTH, MANHATTAN
Second Avenue, a red riverbed
shimmering, stopping
then streaming forth
oblivious of revelers
crowding the FDR Drive
hanging over rooftop parapets.
Erupting in thunderous explosions
that ricochet off concrete and steel
clusters of multi-colors refract
in the skyscraper cave
acting as history’s mirrors
slightly dulling the sharpness, the pain.
At the edge of the night-blue sky
the black water
the glorious and brief display
stretches across centuries
iIn repayment for
the terrible price of birth
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MOON TALK
The October cat tiptoes daintily
round the rooftop’s guard rail
a small white autumn ghost
some memory of mordant nights
It stops atop the corner post
surveying the golden sphere
all four feet united in one spot
balancing like a seal on a ball
Ears pricked, it emits a protracted note
drowning the roar of the city’s violence
a deep tone pulled from somewhere
far below the earth’s spurious wraps
Perhaps bereft of too brief mother-love
or saddened by inbred feline wisdom
of denied parenthood, stripped and lost
communing alone with the silent moon
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DIRGE
The abandoned dog howls
All day and long into the night
The dog alone tied to the tree
Circling in agony and yowling
Strangling its hind legs
Immobilizing its circuity
All but the path from its larynx
To its chops, parched the pitiful
The lone dog wailing
Leashed to the lolling willow
Its pale leaves swinging silently
In the wan night-time breeze
Only the rudtling of the grass and
The crickets and the dog’s cries
In the quiet shafts of the moon
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WINTER EXPERIENCE
Often with snow
..........I sight the birders
..high over the Hudson
under the stand of cedars
..frost-coated, stately
My dad in his Christ-of-the Andes pose
..........no saint
..no Francis of Assisi
winter birds pause
..........crackling sunflower seeds
nibbling millet from the sleeve of
..his Harris-tweed jacket
As the nuthatch scurries
..........down his trouser
..he turns to my mother
..........the supplicant
his long goofy smile
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THE MARRIAGE
The promise is clear
..........no shadings
..no shifting shadows
preserved against time
..........like Manet’s violets
..in a blast of light
Moments proceed
..........in the private
..turbulence of minds
leaving the vow
..........a lingering question:
..What will we see?
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Autumn’s leaves descend
wildly, from glorious heights,
returning to start.
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Short nights, unnoticed,
disapear slowly -- frog songs
replaced by school bells